Life is beyond our control. It can bring joy, laughter, and happiness, then turn around and rip your heart out of your chest without warning.
Abel Matheson received a cold dose of life’s reality six months ago when the man he loved most lost his fight against cancer.
Free-spirited, easy-going Abel doesn’t know how to cope with the rotting, festering grief growing inside him. What was once an easy life has become a struggle to put one foot in front of the other.
His grades are slipping, his job is suffering, money is tight, and the nightmares plaguing his sleep are relentless. Something has to give. He can’t keep going like this.
Desperate to end his suffering, Abel falls back on old habits. Self-destructive habits he knows are wrong.
Every time he tries to stand, he ends up face-first in the mud.
On the advice of a counselor, Abel makes attempts to find a support system to help him handle his grief. Unexpectedly, during his quest toward healing, Abel makes a connection with the most unlikely of people.
His mind wants to rebel against the man who stands before him. Run far and fast in the other direction. But his heart forms a bond that annihilates his fear.
Why this man of all people?
Sometimes you find help and love where you least expect it.
Oh God. Abel.
I spent the the first part of this book, my heart breaking, tears flowing. Abel is suffering and I can’t even begin to imagine the pain of that loss. Even though they had but a short time together, he loved Landon with his whole heart. He is hurting, he is struggling. He can’t concentrate, he can’t talk about it, he can’t sleep. He is not working through the stages of grief and it is suffocating him. He is drowning in his sorrows in alcohol and is grief almost overtakes him.
But fate, she is a clever lady sometimes. Abel finds a friend in Keiran, Landon’s high school ex boyfriend. He is dealing with his pain as well, even though he had been pushed away by Landon, he is still suffering. He see’s Abel suffering, and he is there for him. He understands him, his pain. He wants to help him, so he does. He heals Abel and the story and coming together of these two me despite the pain, was beautiful.
This, at it’s core, is a story of love, loss, healing and learning to love again. Knowing that you don’t love the past any less, but recognizing that your past wants you to live, and in living, you can find a future you never knew existed.
Nicky James lives in the small town of Petrolia, Ontario, Canada. She is mother to a wonderful teenage boy and wife to a truly supportive and understanding husband who, thankfully, doesn’t think her crazy.